last

Last... cos gog to be very busy. there are also other reasons for soon disappearing act. i need to clear my doubt first before continuing... cos i hate people who wana gossip and not ask. i am busy but right now i jus need to let it out. i am feeling frustrated. stress cos starting new things unsure if i can handle but they will help me learn new things and am looking forward at the same time but it will also take away my free time in exchange for money and knowledge. i dun feel like giving in. and people have to learn not to jeopardise relationship. NOT every single thing is funny. NOT everytime i can take it. ITS JUST NOT FUNNY! GOSSIP KILLS. why people just dun get it not allowing it on themselves but dying to dig up stuff. I AM NOT PREGNANT so stop asking. i am jus fat. if you have a heart i jus had operation in MAY! its not fake and i have a block tube that will lower or even no chance of getting a baby so stop hurting me GET LOST! stop staring its not funny ITS not concern and stop acting. IF U HAVE A QUESTION ask. thats all you need to do but do it with brains. YAH BRAINS> if its gog to hurt someone dun start if u know its gog to jeopadise find out the truth from me. dun create soemthing that you think is funny cos its not.

2nd Wedding Anniversary

recently not been that good ... work is fine but not the people. Friday's meeting make me realise we are 2nd citizens and whatever we do as long is one mistake you will be condemn. they can tolerate some other people's "working attitude " but pinpoint a fast worker and i dun understand why they dun talk to the person involved directly but announce to the whole team then ask the main teacher incharge this year to talk to us... dun get it and we gota speculate... xianz this week. the good news is that i got a pair of gals for tutoring but have to go all the way to bukit timah on sat morning but its good money. and thanks to May who passed them to me! thus i gota move my local kido to later sat afternoon... will be almost another working day for me! also earning alittle more cos from next tues onwards i will be helping out a spanish teacher in local term like an eca kinda stuff. help to look after the kidos but this not earning alot but better than none and i get to learn spanish! hope he's nice... and class is easy to take care...fingers crossed cos i see him twice a week on tues and thurs... !

Tuesday 18th September 2007 is our 2nd wedding anniversary. On Monday we were thinking hard cos we didnt want to go back to M hotel and we were trying to find somewhere in Taka to have dinner after the spa. then when i called gx during lunch to confirm dinner place he broke a sad news to me... the new car was gog to be delievered to them at 2pm. I was upset cos didnt get to see it for the last time. over the weekend and Monday with his family we did bring the car for a spin and photo taking but i was sad that instead of wed it has to go on our anniversary... its was our wedding car... we like this car but in time to come we will need to change it and the new car come with a lower installment each month... so the family decided to part with our favourite yellow car. we all felt sad... esp my mil... it meant alot to her.

bcos gx gota settle carpark transfer to this new car he was late... during the massage the therapist was shocked... she say i was having very bad stiffness and bad blood circulations... it was painful but she's good. she knows where i am having aches and after all the pain my tension is released. surprised they told us we got feet treatment thou... they insisted we have .... so we went for it taking it as given for our anniversary or arranged by the gal who is our consultant who didnt book our 16th massage... so we soak the feet, massaged with cream then paraffin? haha gx first time do this! we sat on a very uncomfortable massage chair thou the only bad point! Our plans changed after spa... we didnt wana go back to m cos dun wana elaborate our dinner cos still within 100days... but we felt silly to eat at taka then go shopping for the kidos bdae gifts on our special day... so we head back to drive our new car out to M... When i saw the car ... really miss looking for yellow cos the whole carpark will be filled with mostly silver or black then here and there red, blue and a few smaller yellow cars... gx say we should look forward...

WAS very hungry oredi when we got there! went back to the same place as last year cafe 2000. ordered the semi buffet that comes with a main course. looked thru the menu and the lobster soup is no longer available... heres the spread of the semi buffet...

calamari, fried wantan in BIG piece of wantan skin (so very crispy!), toast with chicken and tuna filling, breaded fried prawns

cold mini lobster? or crayfish, cold fresh oysters, cold clams, cold mussels and cold prawns which was the best...

sushi and a cute small wooden box of cold soba

fresh salmon sashimi

smoked salmon, mussels and prawns in shotglass

Gx's beef tenderloin and mine's Salmon in Lemony sauce.

Desserts... the left piece was cheesecake dusted with gold dust and top with a gold dust walnut.

not alot of variety but was filling when we ate our main course. I had salmon with a nice lemony sauce and he ate beef. the dessert reminded me of our rom buffet at J Bar. the cheese cake had a coffee cake base the cheese cake was to die for! and the rich chocolate cake was very good cos dark and smooth! didnt eat anything with the chocolate fountain and the kuehkuehs ...



when gx left for the bathroom i decided to order the same cake that was served to us last year. the best strawberry cheescake! with much tots i jus asked them to arrange a candle like the one we had before... celebrate? we cut down alot this year with no gifts and this was very last minute to wrap it up nicely... when the waiter bring the cake over he couldnt see (again jus like last year!) EXCEPT that this time we had a BIGMOUTH uncle old uncle who got excited... he said at his top of his excited soul! "WAH!!!!! WHOOOOOS BDAE!!!!! WAHHHHHH!!!! WHOS BDAE!!!!!" gerald of cos turn and watch the waiter walk towards us ... he was like ok theres a cake coming.... but a big surprise to us is .... the cake had a birthday tag! and when the waiter put it down he immediately wished him HAPPY BDAE! ...

i then explain to both of them its my fault i didnt make it clear its for our wedding anniversary!... he was like ohhhh sorry but he's very nice and i said it my fault no prob and they decorated with love... cos they went to the expand to drizzle the words happy bdae on the plate and decorated the plate with sliced strawberries and its different this time cos theres freshly-made strawberry ice cream in a tart case. he chatted with us and we told him we got married here, last year celebrated at this same cafe, had the cheesecake which we had at our Buffet at J BAR.... but this year i didnt call up to arrange. He then told us whenever the menu changes this cheesecake stays... i say it has to cos its really good and gx told him we are prob gog to come every year! Gx thinks its the best place to be at on our anniversary and i agree! the cheese was so soft! a perfect way to mark the nite. the service people here are really nice. we didnt regret not coming in here to eat our dinner.

we then went up to the 10th floor to take a peek at the ballroom area... last year the place didnt have any events thus the whole floor was DARK. this year we saw alot of people in the lobby in gowns leaving so we went up to check the place out... there are changes in the front foyer... so we took the chance to take some pictures... and we helped ourself to 2 balloons!

got home and as usual i will fan gx till he takes a series of pictures with me then i let him go!





after that me went straight to bed cos i was soooo tired after the spa and with a happy filled tummy! but i woke up late this morning... took a cab to work and JAM... hope the 2 motor cyclist are fine... they collided with a car... when we passed the area... i shut my eyes and prayed for them... but i made it to school in time... i reached before 7.30am and at 7.30am i started working! cos this is one of the points they make clear to us during the meeting... for this i am not worried cos most of the time i am there and oredi started fotocopying stuff thats on my desk.... but this makes me stresss in the morning when i wake up cos soooooo afraid to be late... received a mgs tuition cancelled... glad so i can rest... 2 years at this time 5+ i was sitting in my "queen" seat doing my makeup... cos today is our dinner nite... but we dun celebrate this day but gx gota work midnite today... now my worry is nobody to make sure i get outa bed in time tomolo morning...

i need to WAKE UP! wake up from my semi-unhappy shell...

my offday

not a very exciting day... neither relaxing....

went doctors with gx... hand pain .... ate mc. tried their bagel for the 1st time... ok prefer mc sm thou.. went hm and started packing wardrobe... till now its not done... yah... since morning but in between went to meet mum for lunch didnt eat much cos was still filled from morning bkfast. then recevied call to go tuition at 2pm. after helping mum with her grocery and got her a cab i ran home cos started to rain... tuition for 2hrs then got hm hung laundry then cooked noodles then fold clothings .... till now bed is filled with loads of clothes cos haven rearrange them in the new sopts... taking a break now. pissed with the spa people cos now they say we dun have an appointment... they are terrible... really xianz... need a massage badly cos shoulders aching badly...why must it be so difficult to do booking and rejected always. i booked this after our spa and now they say its full without telling us that we dun have an appt...

we decided not to go m hotel this year... we wanted to but jus decided we will cook.... very mixed feelings about gog and not gog to m dun know why...

i still dun feel good ... i feel trap...

tomolo grandpa's qi qi (7/7). the photo on the plaque still not done cos now they say they busy... am i not a customer?

why...

why why why... i hate feeling so small...

i dun like me! i dun like to be like that... i need to have some changes... i am so tired of being pushed down... i need to wake up and do something for myself... haha sleep! best theraphy... lucky me i have a break tomolo. no work on friday but i am filled with things to do... i hope to at least catch lunch with mum.... looking for serena but unable to locate her at all... where are you serena???

cupcakes ii

Gx didn't expect the big box, he didnt know there was gog to be 12 cupcakes. his favourite was the peapod! i like that too! will prob bake this friday? cos i off this friday!!! no school!!! but mit not bake if mum is off i prob go back to be with her.
my 2nd favourite and prob the prettiest flower i made compared to the other 2. And this was my 1st try at making mazipan flower. my 12 little cupcakes! the chocolate cake is really gooooood.... i mit not make the cream or icing. but i am interested in coming out with more designs using mazipan... feeling inspired!

cupcakes

I know its expensive to attend this cooking school's classes... but they are a little different... Highclass yes... cos owner is someone highclass... althou ii find her only friendly with people who are prob richer... alot of people carry coach, 1 carry prada... but there are some "simple" people (i'm one of them) . Most of all her classes her chefs she invites are of really high standard. she is related to the Lee family...she published her grandma's recipe book ...peranakan food and my mum has the old one bought ages ago! i got her the new 2 year ago... and now attending classes at her school.

I learnt a great deal today about decorating cupcakes! i enjoyed the class althou wished i got more friends with me... the chocolate cake is the DARK kind.... not chocolti brown but Black brown... yet to try it but it smelt soooo gooood. Its a gift for gx ... anniversary gift... something i made... long time never baked and 1st time learnt how to decorate... fun! bot more expensive cocoa powder and paper cups cos i wana make more of these nice cupcakes... but of cos i will be doing the simplier versions of icing and creams... and also had a try at using mazipan! fun! i made peapod, bee and flowers!

when we were done they gave us a box and ribboned it up for us! wana see my end product? i did a few simple ones cos we had 12 cupcakes to decorate! first try at piping cream...not easy need steady hands! and here's my 1st try.....!

this is a closer pic of the cupcakes i did before i packed them up!looking forward to attend the other 2 classes i signed up... esp the japanese-french pastries class... feel like attending baking school in japan or france... am dreaming! gog to sign up for the drawing class in school... so broke but rich in other ways...

will post more photos when gx opens his gift! he yet to see it cos he worked afternoon shift today! will take the chocolate cupcake texture! any orders???

learning...

this week was better at school... i am so glad almost everything went smoothly except forgetting to bring kidos straight for computer lessons ... an update on that stupid gay case is that my student is now very frightened to go pass staff bathroom... and he's a teacher and he frightened my kid. see i wasnt kidding about his tone and stupid words... the kid or even kids are my proof. lex hope he needs the toilet and doesnt get one... to think he fought with me with his evil eyes and words for bathroom and complain about kids using it. i am still unhappy with the case... i need to see him suffer. no toilet when he badly needs one... then dun he dare go boys toilet! since kids in need cannot use the adults one! am so pissed when i saw him at breakfast... free tea at staff lounge... ignored him.

this week mad rush cos parents conference night on tues, had to prepare lox, decorate the class... then exhuasted and had alot to prep the class for next weeks activities... still haven really like all the children yet ... i am not warmed up with them yet cos this bunch ... really noisy, chitty chatty! all the time... nothing much except that i bot a new pair of white shoes and 1st online buy with serena and shanice... mines lowest among shanice's long list... i ordered 3 pieces of clothings... hopefully they fit... went bj8 with ann today the shoes she wanted are not in yet...

she's thinking of watching david copperfield... 128 2nd most expensive... he's coming in nov... liek watching his magic when i was young... never watched him perform live... if 3 tickets that would cost me almost 390... still pending... if she dun say i wot know he's coming...

cos for oct i intend to sign up for 2 classes... learning tapa dishes and french-japanese pastries and sweet. looking forward to my cupcake class! can't wait! i looking forward to sign up for classes that are not long term but get me started in learning... anything jus learn new stuff or learning to perfect it. am even considering art class in school... its for adults 8 lessons 150... no need to buy materials jus use existing stuff in the artroom... been wanting to get bac to drawing... everytime i walk pass the middle school art boards i get so inspired to pick up the pencil... am afraid some how and never really wanted to purposely buy paper and start... think that mayb a form of therapy for me.

that would mean me very broke for oct... but am so looking forward... i need to have some changes... i feel so stagnant...

dun let it rain on me anymore

enough bad luck... go away leave me alone. I have happy times but why can't the rest of the time be normal times and not bad... i dun need bad times to show me wats good times. yesterday too angry too mad too "disappointed" and disgusted to go for class... i wot say why wot do me any good. i need to protect myself... just needed to vent out my anger.

i hope BAD luck will go... next week got cupcake class hopefully wot missed tat cos paid for oredi. esp that "BAD B" stay away go far away from us. everytime i see you sure nothing good. yes still sore over it but i will not let u come any nearer cos i had enough of the insensitive. i wot be tolerant anymore! i am not the type that get carried away so dun make me slap you ... cos its not a big thing put yourself in my shoes... if this gets out its not my fault i have the right to get angry. you should learn to grow up. we beter not meet cos i am in no mood.

today at school told myself i will get thru everything peacefully... almost everything was good... i gog to be positive thinking and forget about you ... not important and insignificant.

i hate YOU

I hate you!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!
HATE YOU to the core!!!!

a massage finally

fri : not a good day... i was happy when school was over...

yes i suffer from ache and pain all the time on shoulders, neck and lower back... but as school started, the strains got worse... PAINFUL... esp lower back in the morning kills... after 3 times trying to book out spa, we finally got a date and get to use the couples' room...

after 3hrs tuition went home eat instant noodles then did laundry and hung it so that my muscles will be sore for massaging! cos i didnt wana go massage then do laundry as usual on sunday! just 30mins b4 leaving heavy DOWNPOUR... lucky when we left the house it stopped completely and sunny again...

got there and we were led into our couple's room and we took a hyrobath chose a mix of green tea and lavender. soak in the jacuzzi jet tub for 15mins and then quick rinse then massage started from 3.50pm-5.50pm. here are some pics i took when we we getting ready b4 the masseurs came in... quite a big room!thats gx shoulders he ran off when i tried to take his picture.

the shower room was huge, took only half the shower area. this was next to the jacuzzi.theres this sitting area infront of the cupboard. he went to check out the magazines in the dark...the one i had was strong... she had loads of strength! almost gana killed haha... told her to lighten alittle and she's really good cos got difference. when she pinpoint on the part that hurts alot it really HURTS! cos other times when i do the massage its sore but no one brings out the pain. then she will rub and knead till the pain gone she say its stuck... blood not circulating well. shoulders and neck hurts and then whe kept kneading till it was less sore. and she say my stomach too much wind... i wonder what cos stomach to have too much wind?

after the 2 hours felt better but i know the next morning the parts will be very sore cos the muscle or clot release will have after effects... and true enough its SORE right now but i know it will go away. in days mayb cos i think this time its worse... anyway looking forward to the next on the 16th sept!

booked thai cooking class on friday. gog to holland v later to attend it a 3pm and it a demo by Forest Leong, wife of the famous chinese chef Sam Leong. i was vrery reluctant but finally decided to part with my money to see her demo one dish... the coconut dessert i loved since young! there are 4 other dishes she is gog to do but i jus need to see her teach the correct way of doing that dessert... paying quite a bit but hope its gog to be good. next sunday its the cupcakes class! that i booked 2months ago! its fully booked! its hands-on session where we get to bring a dozen or half home!

hopefully its good! looking at a few other classes that sounds interesting!