miserable

it has been very negative since cny started.
my hp is spoilt. yes declaring it ended its contract with me today.
sick. moody. now very frustrated and i can't vent it anywhere.
whatever is important? why so weird? everything is spolit! i am finding fault? i am not!
i am being harsh but its for reality and why should it be like that? i can understand but its not an excuse! its should be sadness not anger. it was a choice made. y not jus let it out then bottled it.
i am tired emotionally, mentally, physically... am not strong to keep getting it for my actions that is not wrong. how about my feelings and i am concern. i am not wrong.
please dun guesses or ask. i had enough till now and more to come and i jus wana throw it out. i dun wana add onto my problem. i am strained. my marriage is good. life is jus not smooth. jus hope i won't get into trouble tomolo.