voice

i can't imagine unable to hear myself speak, laugh, sing... even cry. voiceless...
my grandpa voice box is affected and is getting worse so fast ... too fast... handling the news, now the actual situation. i'm so afraid the spread... but its fast, very fast, its tough and its going to be worse for him.

he tried to clear his thoart badly today to ask us question or answer us. he tried to sit up as he tot lying down too long is affecting him... he's not stupid. my grandpa is smart, he knows and he is jus trying his best to speak, finding ways to make himself heard. its painful for us to see him but the pain he go through is worse cos its physically and mentally.

i didnt cry, but its so hard.