enlightenment

have i attain it? how did i not feel the hate i had? simply dun feel hatred woh. but i still have not control my emotion fully, but i am much better than before, he's oso actually one of the factor.
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wed went to get satay. gx went to park car and i went ahead to order first. when i was almost approching, there was this guy at the table who was looking at me... i saw him and didnt know what to do but instantly i smile at him and waved hi...
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there was no way to escape conversation. cos the satay stall was right behind him... i escape to gather tots by telling him i need to go order food first. walked back to him and started talking. he slimmed down and no more goatee. but still he's one person who i dun really wana have contacts with. just small chat about where we are working and then thank gdness gx walked over and i did a intro. was surprised that both of them dun seem to know each other... i said this is the same guy i dated back then and we just got married 3years ago... then oh...
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confused so when we walked away to wait for satay i asked gx. then i realise they never met before, almost met, almost make a fuss but didnt managed. so weird to meet but yet glad it was now somehow. makes me realise i dun really hate cos it was part of growing and understanding, how to handle myself. still, i rather not meet anymore.